last night a new friend came over. I haven’t thought of a nickname for him yet… not really important at the moment. just wanted to recap the night!

he showed up a little after 8:30pm and of course I was super impatient about it. since I usually go to sleep around 9:30pm, whenever someone comes over late I want them to arrive asap. anyway. awkward side-hug greeting. off to a great start lol… went upstairs, gave him a tour of the place, then sat around and talked. we were going to watch that movie based on epic beard man but the sound didn’t work on my ps3, so we watched some ‘jon benjamin has a van’ and goofed off. bigwerm came home early which was a little disappointing, but it was good to see him and he enjoyed watching jon benjamin’s skits.

new friend and I ended up fooling around which was soooo funnn and I really needed it! I’ve been kind of down lately and of course affection helps me get out of a funk :) he left a little after 11pm and I passed out hard! I hope I get to see him again soon.

I think it goes without saying that everyone hates being cut off while driving. there’s that second of fear when you don’t know if you’re going to run into them, the anger when you realize they’re not going to go as fast as you want, and the eventual conscious effort to stifle your road rage. however I’ve been noticing a different kind of cutting off in my life – being cut off while speaking.

we’re all guilty of this: your sister/coworker/imaginary friend is wrapped up in a glorious tale regarding their crazy weekend when suddenly you have a thought that just won’t wait. so you blurt it out, cutting off your dear companion, but then quickly ask them to continue their story. things go back to normal. I understand this happens. what I DON’T understand is why it’s happening more and more often in my life. and you know it wouldn’t be so bad if I thought the other person felt bad for interrupting me (kitti feels bad, I know that), but lately friends have taken to cutting off my words without a care. it wouldn’t be such a big deal except it’s becoming more frequent and it’s happening during somewhat serious conversations. two prime examples:

last week my friend and I went out to lunch and I paid (like I normally do – long explanation I’m going to skip for now). I noticed that time that my friend never says thank you for the meal. never expresses gratitude at all, really. when I brought it up to him this past week, the conversation went something like this:
me: hey this is going to sound weird, but when I take you out for food I need you to say thank you–
friend: you’re right. I never thought of that. I don’t know why I didn’t. anyway.

you might be thinking “oh how sweet, he agrees with you. what’s the big deal?” the big deal is I got cut off mid-sentence when trying to explain a long history of something and he pretty much power-played out of it. instead of letting me finish my thought he agreed as fast as possible, cutting me off, and taking all the power away from my words. am I happy he agreed he needs to say thank you? of course I am. am I upset that he didn’t get the whole story? naturally.

last night I wanted to talk through my concerns with bigwerm over his gf coming over again (they had broken up but are back together now). bigwerm and I have a deal where I buy groceries and he cooks. he usually buys the meat (omaha steaks) so I get a break on that front. however, because my budget is so tight right now, I was unsure of whether or not I could afford more people eating the shared food. so I approached bigwerm hoping to get some advice and talk through it with him. instead, almost immediately into the conversation, he cut me off and said “buy your own groceries.” obviously it wasn’t my intention to upset him (I actually don’t know how he feels about it. I never can read him)… then he said something like “I’m not going to let this be an issue.” well guess what? by cutting me off and drawing a line in the sand, you just made it an issue. what’s so wrong with wanting to talk things through, get honest opinions, and maybe a new perspective? apparently everything’s wrong with that.

so now I feel like crap because I’ve been shit on this week by multiple friends who I thought would offer me more than a few words and a brush-off. meh. life.

friday after work I picked up zanzibar’s car because hers would fit a desk and side table…

saturday I left the house at 7:45am, got my friend in baltimore, drove to annapolis to get the desk, drove around downtown a bit to enjoy the scenery (was trying to go to chick & ruth’s but downtown was just too crowded and I got anxious), drove back to MC, had sushi at a buffet, went back to my place and moved the furniture in my room, drove friend back to baltimore, returned zanzibar’s car, and drove back home. all in all, was in the car for over six hours. it sucked. I need to stop driving around so much. it costs too much and wears me outttttt. no more day trips. that’s it. the end. for reals this time.

sunday I slept in a bit (totally needed after saturday), straightened up things, ate too much junk food, had my friend joe over to watch ice pirates (pretty much a cheesy 80’s flick making fun of star wars and the like), caught up a bit, played monkey island on the ps3 (the revamped original), then he left around 6:30pm. I ate dinner and cleaned up a bit more, updated my okcupid profile (says I’m looking for long-term dating again… because katsu still hasn’t messaged me), texted with journey (who I still feel awkward around/texting whatever laskdjlksfjasldkf ) then passed out.

and now it’s monday, and I had great plans of doing a 2012 rio5 review but now I’m grumpy and tired and my allergies are noticeable today. grumble grumble. so I’m not doing any of that stuff. so there >.< but here’s my steering wheel cover (Photo0592 currently missing) that I wrapped with ribbon! =^_^= actually can’t decide if I wanna go black and pink as my color scheme, or black and blue/teal… like a nice #02A7E1 or maybe #0078AD. decisions!!!!!!

these past several days haven’t been kind to me. I found out some pretty bad news on friday that has permanently altered the way I think about relationships. not going into detail because I don’t want to, but just wanted to mark this milestone.

thursday journey texted me and asked if I was in bed – at 10pm. of course I was; I wake up before 5am on the weekdays! but he charmingly said he wanted to drink and at the time bigwerm and ruckus were still awake drinking so I told journey to come on over. I got out of bed and on my way downstairs passed ruckus – apparently he had an important meeting in the morning and had to be responsible. psh. I finished my descent and walked into the kitchen where bigwerm was on his way upstairs for bed, as well. okay, guess it would just be journey and me!

journey got to my place around 10:30pm. I’d previously told him he could stay until midnight. thought that was fair. anyway, we started drinking and goofing off. I think we went on youtube for some stuff, and facebook because he wanted to know how many friends I had. we also created a plentyoffish account so I could demonstrate why okcupid was better. oh, and I’d randomly received a text from a guy I’d chatted with on pof OVER A YEAR AGO and wanted to check out his profile lol. anyway, journey and I were having a good time when around 11:30pm bigwerm came downstairs. of course my initial reaction was guilt because I’d kept him awake. he assured me he just wasn’t able to get to sleep. then bigwerm decided to make chili dogs (journey had one, I declined) and hang out for a bit. around midnight bigwerm went back upstairs, leaving journey and me alone once again.we had some great fun and time slipped away. suddenly it was 2am. UGH. finally kicked him out (even though I wanted to keep hanging out) and passed out. woke up at 4:45am and wanted to punch babies. thought about how weird it is that we have a good time together and have pretty good chemistry but he says we aren’t a good “dating match.” whatever -_-

friday I had a doctor’s appt during work hours, which totally screwed me getting a full 40 hours, but it did allow me to take a short nap on the table while I waited lol… then work was a blur and I got home and got the last parking spot. ruckus wasn’t happy about that but what was I supposed to do? then bigwerm called ruckus to ask if he wanted 5guys and I was telling ruckus that I wanted some but he refused to tell bigwerm. when ruckus hung up, I asked him what that was about. he said that’s what I get for taking the last parking spot…. really? REALLY? skjfskl;ajfasdfkaj!!!! one reason I’m glad he’s moving out soon – he can be such a child!!! night was relaxing, went to bed a little late after watching TV.

saturday I got up early to get my mudguards installed up at the kia place in owings mills. got done around 11:30am (btw Lee is awesome and he really took care of me), called zanzibar to see if she wanted to hang for a bit, drove up to her place and chilled for a bit. I decided since it was really sunny and warm out that seraphina was probably heated enough to de-badge. so in zanzibar’s parking lot I started spraying the goo-gone stuff and slowly peeling back the badges (the RIO and GTI). somewhere near the end, I got the attention of too many wasps and freaked out. zanzibar was gracious enough to come outside and move the wash buckets near the front door while I drove to safeway’s parking lot to finish the de-badging. (less foliage = less wasps). finally got seraphina all done, washed her up at zan’s, and went back upstairs. relaxed for a bit, then we headed to target, then they had a birthday party to go to so I stopped by the mall. serendipity! new york and company was having a one day 50% off everything sale, which meant I could afford the two shirts I’ve been wanting for over a month!! yayyyy! I also spent some time at mr tire, but my buddy there was really busy so I left soon after. drove back to bigwerm’s, relaxed, passed out.

sunday I did laundry and vacuumed a bit. other than that, spent most of my time on the couch watching movies. bigwerm and ruckus went to the oriole’s game (sad they lost but it was a good game) so I had the TV to myself. they came home and bigwerm made chili cheese dogs and we ate and then I watched him play Castlevania: Symphony of the Night then we went to bed. oh, and I called my mom somewhere in there! happy mother’s day!

all in all, an alright weekend. not as happy as I wanted to be, but I’ll get over this slump soon.

this past weekend was so odd. first the friday evening was spent doing pretty much nothing. dishes, maybe? ate crap food for sure. I spent a lot of time on reddit which directly affected me going to sleep around 1:30am.

saturday was a different story. woke up at 7:30am thanks to ruckus’ alarm (which of course he snoozed). used bigwerm’s computer to bullshit online, then took a shower. by the time I was done, dressed, and going downstairs, ruckus was up and back from mcdonald’s. he shouted, “GOOD MORNING!!” at me and I responded in a not-so-enthusiastic manner. why would it be a good morning when I didn’t get enough sleep on the weekend? you know, the nights you shouldn’t have to set an alarm? regardless, I left the house around 9:30am and visited bruce at the kia service center. I wanted to ask about mud guards and a tiny tiny chip in the paint on the side of the hood. he and I also chatted for a bit but then I was off to more adventures. it was nice, he sent me an email after my visit to let me know it was great seeing me again (more on this later).

now, background info on my next stop… I’ve been looking for some metal wings to screw into my front license plate. no, I don’t want a whole license plate frame. I just want two wings coming off the screws. because her name is seraphina, I think it’d be really cool to have wings on the front of the car. something relatively small… maybe four inches? but you have NO IDEA how difficult it is to find this!! so after leaving the kia service center, I went to home depot to try and find some metal wings… no luck. by this time, zanzibar had contacted me about the demolition derby that night, saying to meet up at 5:30pm. but since I was already halfway there, I just went up to her city and shopped at kohl’s until she called. OH AND ALSO!!! by this time I’d received a text from an unfamiliar number that said, “is this kaese?” and the convo went back and forth a few times before he told me his name… it was bruce, the service guy. now, I don’t know about you, but I didn’t give him my number but obviously they have it on file at their shop. I’m a nice person and I’m not going to report it or anything, but isn’t that a little weird? anyway, back to my convo with zan: we decided to go to j cafe (http://www.myjcafe.com/) for lunch with her bf. then we went to THEIR home depot to get flowers and a gas grill for the bf. I stayed in the shade as much as possible and ended up looking like a lurker lol. the bf got an already assembled grill but it wouldn’t fit in zanzibar’s forrester so after many times of trying to detach the extremities, the bf gave up and we got a boxed one. went back to the bf’s house, I took a nap, then around 5:45pm zanzibar, the bf, one of their friends and I drove to the demolition derby (after picking up some alcohol, of course. side note, new favorite drink: root beer with whipped cream vodka). the derby was awesome. it was really fun rooting for a specific number. zanzibar’s cars always won. rigged? perhaps. we also had delicious funnel cake. omg so fresh and fatty and worth it!

oh, side story, sorry… about journey and katsu.

I’ve been having a rough time of it with katsu. thursday I was gchatting with katsu (the only way we communicate) and he wasn’t going to be able to hang out this weekend. I haven’t seen katsu since april 26th, so I don’t think it was unreasonable for me to be a little disappointed about not seeing him. the other ongoing issue is he’s always green on gchat because of his phone, but that doesn’t mean he’s actually around to chat. so I told him thursday that I needed him to start messaging me since green on gchat for me means I’m actually available. anyway just read the chat snippet and you’ll get the idea. so then friday night I was texting with journey about it, and I mentioned that I was really enjoying my time with him and he stopped texting me O_o turned out his phone had died, but nevertheless I was self-conscious enough about it to re-think my attitude toward journey. we also talked on the phone saturday night and he stressed we were bros. yeah. definitely not going to get too attached to that one lol.

sunday I watched TV/movies all day with bigwerm. felt like such a slacker but it was nice to recover! was kind of hoping journey would text me to hang out, but after our odd conversation saturday I refused to text him first lol.

before I leave, just wanted to say how awesome fancybox is! love lightboxes! cheers ^_^

wednesday night I hung out with the journalist. we got pho at pho & grill around 6pm and stayed there chatting until after 8pm. with nowhere else to go and me not wanting to get drinks, we headed back to my place. journey met bigwerm and ruckus which was cool… ruckus made a drink for journey (captain and orange soda, which is actually pretty good) and I made myself a strong malibu and 7up. you might be laughing at me, saying “strong and malibu don’t belong in the same sentence” but I’m a lightweight! ended up making one more drink for journey and myself and I was pretty damn tipsy for a school night. ruckus and journey were laughing at my expense, and then journey acted like the big brother he is and told me to go get ready for bed XD! so I went and brushed my teeth and put on my PJs and we hung out a little bit more. then it was suddenly SUPER LATE so I walked journey to the door and said good night. all in all, it was a great time and I’m glad he and I have become friends.